Saturday, June 14, 2008
these few days i hav rather alot of problems, here and there
many problems such as sch hwk
they are piling lik crazy
hav friends breaking promises
ppl are there breaking promises and told lies to me, for their own good
seriously although i amd not sure why but still it happens, and will still happen
when u r seiously at home
and you have nth much to do
u will go thinking abt things
things and problems start popping out into your head
you will start thinking abt y things happen this way
is it your fault??
if so, y didnt u avoided it
if not, did u lead to that problem
when things happen such way
i feel exhausted
on how people put it this way
and how people are willing to hurt you to gain satisfaction themselves
its lik the same saying of one man's medicine is another man's poison

and i have been highly sentimental these days
when things happen jus on the surface
why did i go into it even deeper
and when i know after doing actions, will come problems and responsibility
and yet still i venture it out
to hurt ppl and myself at a harder blow
when im suppose to do something, i yet do the opposite
just to satisfy my current desire, only to be hurt later

even when i try to solve these problems
the next one will rise, before i even solve this
i have been taking it out on my body
lik suddenly lifting weights more than usual
doing more pumping and sit-ups
when i do so, i felt much better
at least when you are hurt physically
you able to know where to heal
and how to heal the pain and soreness
and a few days later, it would be healed
but my problems dun go away just lik that
i feel lik hiding myself
like being emo and cry and all that stuff
but my character which i hav been showing
do not allow me to do that
i need to be lik my outside character
i need to be cheerful and all that joke and stuff
or else people would not accept me as who i am
even posting this post i am worried
that people would hav a different point of view of me
and that i hav change
and maybe i am not that cheerful and postive
my this behaviour have been showing up
i heard people telling me that they do not know what i am thinking about
and what i hav been trying to do
and what i have been wanting others to do
and after doing that what am i trying to proof
like from this post
why am i posting this
why is the ever joking around liankhye posting this
attention seeker right??
aiya dun need lik that de lah
noob~
perhaps all that comment
but deep down who knows what that person is thinking of

perhaps i need to sort things out before coming back to the real world.......


IP LK wrote @ 11:24 PM